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Me - Hi Jenni,   He kissed me !!!!!!!!!!

Jenni -What ?when ? where?
Me -Yesternight, he first time drank and ended kissing.

Jenni- how.. explain yaar?

Me - it just happened... I felt so special.... and the best part I m the first girl he ever kissed.

Jenni- arre waahhh. Kya baath hei. So did u tell him?

Me -what?
Jenni- that u love him and was hiding all this while

Me -no, I dint want to spoil the moment....

Jenni- but u kissed now why to hide?

Me- But I cud see his love towards me when he kissed.. I m sure he feels the same way.

Jenni - how was the kiss? Magical?

Me - HMMMMM.....Amateur ... but the moment was magical ...I dint wanna make it awkward by by kissing back... saved it for some other time.

Jenni- so darling do u think it would happen again?

Me- why jenni? Wont it?

Jenni- Darling let me tell you something love is different from lust....
Always what you see in a man's eyes when he kisses you or touches you is not love ....
Men are different from women .... love is totally from what you see and feel so dont get carried away.

Me- so Yesternite was just lust?

Jenni- that only he can tell you.

Me - so?

Jenni- so go and talk about yesterday night....

Me- thats gonna be embarrassing. How will I? What would I ask him? Why he kissed me? Was it just a passed away moment? Or was there anything special ?

Jenni - no direct questions?

Me- then ?

Jenni- go , wish him good morning. Act as if u were pretty cool about what happened , don't be emotional. I'm sure he will open up and tell you. Don't get carried away. Be on your feet. I m sure he will tell you that he feels the same way

Me - will he?
Jenni- ofcourse u r the cutest gal why wud'nt he? Just stay calm. You act as if you don't care about what happened yesterday . U r just emotionally stable and afterall wine did all that.

Me - perfect !!!!!!
Jenni- call me once you talk to him . I will wait to hear
Me- sure, love u Jenni. Just pray


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“A Little more Time for me”

Sun kisses me today,

I smile back and turn to right and read out

 Take ur time , take it slow, no rush, no fuss…

 love like u have never loved before.

This pulls me out from bed

And run to him to whisper in his ears

I love you more today…

Than yesterday.

My hearts pounds to tell him …

Baby we don’t have time…

Time hates me that its leaving me behind

But his smile stops me.

My life was full of surprises…

I had Wrong love at the right time…

But today when I look back, I point out to heaven

And ask… “Jesus can you shower  “A Little more Time for me"

 

A Little more time…..

Just to make myself believe

I was born for him….

And he was for me…….

This love is important as time…

Cos I know……

This is the right Love but

At the wrong time…………….

Jesus you can make things better….

All I ask is a little more time….

Time to make him happy

Time to be with him

Time to leave my reflection with him………………..

I Love the Every Bit in you…. Still you had to betray?

I love the every bit in you… I love the good, bad, irritating stuffs in you.

The way you be lazy on bed when I ask you to get up.

The way you snore and scared the shit out of me.

The way you spill all the food and drinks on your cloths

The way u dirty the place after eating and working.

The way you struggle to put your socks and shoes.

The way look at me when we are in a crowd.

The way you feed me like a baby

The way you carry me to the bed.

The way you check on the minute things when I dress up.

The way you  hold me tight when I fight with you…

Everything in you…….

I always saw the love in yours, But I was wrong….

I was an idiot who forgot to realize that human sees one’s own reflection .

I saw the reflection of my love in your eyes, it was not urs.

If lust was important to you then why did you have to choose me.

There were many to play around.

Why in the name of love.

Teddy, Be honest to yourself atleast once.

When you  knew my heart was already bleeded why did you take a chance of pricking it.

Should I trust you again,

Should I love you again.

My hands shiver, My legs are trembling, my mouth is dried.

I m scared with the word love.

I m sacred of you.

You are the reason why even at the Saddest part of my life, I smile.

Even at confusion I understand.

Even at betrayal I Trust.

Even in Fear of pain I love.

You Owe me an Apology

You Owe me am apology and I really Mean it.

Its not going to make any difference in me…

You might could sleep peacefully for a night.

You Owe me am apology

For the fake emotions you portrayed

For the false hopes of being beside me

For the happy moments spent with me, knowing it’s the end.

You Owe me an apology

For the sleepless nights and days

Which I spent in solitude ….

When you were tying knot to your new fantasy world.

Where were you those days when I needed you?

You promised me that you would lend me you ears,

Shoulders and heart whoever steps in your life.

Ask yourself” Do you really owe me an apology”?

I dint understand the difference between nights and days

It was all the same.

I couldn’t recognize my blood… I used to ask the mirror

Is that me?

Late night sitting on the foot path..

Questioning myself where I went wrong.

I could see 3 men around me offering me a ride.

Dint  understand what they said …

All I replied to them is I am Beenu.

For men on the roads in the night

Dint have anything to do with my name

My luck or my prayers helped  me in my friends attire.

To chase them away and take me back home.

Did I deserve all this for loving you.

Food used to be in front of me for hours.

I used to be hungry for days….

But The distance from the plate to mouth was miles.

Where were you when I was in pain.

People around me called me a fool for loving you.

Ask me whats it like living a life of a dead.

Ask me whats it like when you cant breath when you have air around you.

Today I wonder myself was that me?

Was that me who made my dear ones cry.

Was that me who thought myself worthless

Was  that me who hated myself for not being beautiful.

Today I love myself  more than I loved you.

Today I respect myself more than I respected you.

Today my world is beautiful than yours.

Still you think you don’t owe me an apology

Then may be you are right………………

I owe an apology to God

For loving you……………….

I am not a part of my dream

I had no reasons to love you……
In spite of you letting me know that we could never be together……

If u ever realized my love… you would be back
What was the feeling you had for me …. I never could make out
Was that love or lust or friendship

But I was always there for you…..
I was holding your hands when you had your bad days
I was there for you when you fought with your best friend
I was there for you when you decided to move on with a new life
I was hearing to you when you spoke about the girl you saw
I was suggesting you the best day to take your wedding vows
I was sure that grey color blazer would suit you on the ' D' day
I was ready with the list of friends you should be inviting….
I was sure of all the nitty gritty stuffs that needs to done on your wedding day

I was sure about how the ceremony should go.
I was sure about the attire you should wear
I was sure about all the rituals u wanted

At last but not the least
I was sure that I was not a part of my own dream which I dreamt from the day I saw you………

Request to my Betterhalf

.

I have always dreamt about.

But never thought you would be the one.

A peaceful calm person,

Who listens to my stupid jokes,gossips,

Complaints, pain and dreams

 .

I don’t know how far I could love you

But I promise that I would love more than myself

.

Its not necessary that you have to give surprises,

Its not important that you to remember my bday.

Or  wish me before anyone would do.

Only words I would want to hear from you

  “you are mine and I will be there for you.

I don’t want you to please me always

For the dress I wear

The way I cook

The way I take care of you

The way I love your near and dear ones

Only words  I would want to hear from you

“you are mine and I will be there for you.

I may not look good on somedays

I may have mood swings

I may be idiotic in some decisions

I may over react for some reason.

I may look ugliest on a bad day

I may be full of negativity.

Please hold me tight and whisper to me

“you are mine and I will be there for you.

And believe me I will be yours forever